她们是这样一类很厉害的人。不是指学习或履历上的利害，而是指她们拥有自己的思想，那种我想要却不敢要的思想。
她们将自己包裹的严严实实，外表坚强随和，却从不让人轻易进入内心。她们自我保护意识很强，一旦觉得越线，就会警觉而随意地转移话题。有时，幸运地，她们会对我敞开那层坚硬的外壳，让我触碰里面柔软的心，但很快，她们会因为感到害怕，或是觉得从我这得不到她们想要的东西，而再次紧紧地关上，从此不存在于她们的世界。
她们是这样一类很厉害的人，像猫一样。容易受伤，自我疗伤能力却也很强。她们一面孤独地舔舐着自己的伤口，一面严格地将自己与周围区分开来。她们有时会感到寂寞，却乐在其中，寂寞成为她们小资的源泉。外在的伤愈后，她们平和而带着高傲地看着周围的世界，看着那些伤害过她们的人，或事，将伤口转移到内心深处，那层厚厚的壳的里面。偶尔，夜深人静，月光如水的时候，她们会将里边的这些斟出来，剩在高脚杯里，细细品尝。
她们有时会让我感到害怕，因为自己的感情会很轻易的被她们调动，付出后却发现自己对于她们并不那么重要，我害怕这样的被动。但是，正是她们这样一类人，却能深深地吸引我，参杂着喜欢、崇敬、照顾和挑战。喜欢与她们相处的感觉，她们聪明，能够理解我在想什么，因此自由而惬意，哪怕从来没有见过面，只是通过短信的交流。外表并不重要，她们按照自己的轨迹往前走，不会因为我的加入而改变，却会因为有我而更加精彩。最终，她们会甩下我，或者说我觉得自己跟不上了而选择离开。又有什么关系呢，要的并不是在一起的事实，而是一同走过一段路的交触，内心的交流和碰撞。
我很真诚地与她们相处，朋友那样的，我控制着自己和她们不越过这条界限。有时候觉得自己有这样的想法很邪恶，危险，却带着快感。之所以写在这个只有挺挺会来的博客里，只是想整理下自己的思绪。
2007年3月3日星期六
杂想
今天是元宵，周围朋友们都已经开学了，爸妈去山里寺庙祈福，我又一个人窝家。据说今天会有月蚀，据说今天的月亮最圆最亮，据说北京正在飘着大雪，据说遥远的西伯利亚将降下流星雨。从小，从小在月圆的时候就喜欢盯着月亮看，目不转睛，走火入魔般的。周围那么黑，看不到一点星子，而月亮又是那么亮那么圆，觉得那是个井口，而我们万物苍生被埋在井里。看着看着就想爬出去，月儿的外面有些什么呢？为什么外面的“人”要用半个月时间缓缓揭开这个井盖，又花半个月慢慢盖上？他们在观察我们么？那么亮那么亮，真想出去。
这两天和小怡聊天真是愉快，缘份么？是缘份让并不熟悉的人们走入彼此的生活。知音难求，因此哪怕以后相隔万里，想到彼此曾经的对话，也会欣慰地笑吧。
“予问天乎何为道，欣然自得即成仙。”欣然自得，多么难得的心态，在这样充满诱惑充满选择充满各种各样困扰的现在，又有谁能真正做到呢？爱着自己，自恋却不自大，孤芳自赏却不顾影自怜，平和地对待周围人和事，笑待他们却不随波逐流，宽容却不低下心中高昂的头。因此觉得，独立的人格精神才是最重要，在努力争取外在的声望，努力提升自己的能力，努力为人生履历表添上精彩一笔的同时，追求内心世界的平和高贵，追求美的音乐和文字，追求令人感动的感情，追求世上真善美，更显重要和珍贵啊。因此，不管自己接下来的路会是怎样，始终都会爱着自己，坚定信念，一步步走下去。
父母真的很不容易，为了家庭，为了孩子，他们努力甚至是燃烧生命地工作。我会怀着感恩的心超越他们，为他们在前方的修憩地搭建好最舒适的花园。
2007年2月26日星期一
Task 1
These two charts below show the result of a survey of adult education.
Look at the first bar chart,we can see that there are many reasons for adults choosing to study, in which,interest in subject and to gain qualifications are the most common thought,with 40% and 38%.On the other hand,only 9% adults are studying for meeting people,which is even less than the rate of changing jobs(12%).22% adults consider that go on studying can help their current job.The good reasons that willing to improve prospects of promotion and enjoying studying have the same rate,with 20%.
The pie chart shows us that people think 40% of each course should be shared by the adults students themselves.The employers should assume 35% cost to send their employees to shcool.What's more,the rest 25% fit should be payed by taxpayers.
Look at the first bar chart,we can see that there are many reasons for adults choosing to study, in which,interest in subject and to gain qualifications are the most common thought,with 40% and 38%.On the other hand,only 9% adults are studying for meeting people,which is even less than the rate of changing jobs(12%).22% adults consider that go on studying can help their current job.The good reasons that willing to improve prospects of promotion and enjoying studying have the same rate,with 20%.
The pie chart shows us that people think 40% of each course should be shared by the adults students themselves.The employers should assume 35% cost to send their employees to shcool.What's more,the rest 25% fit should be payed by taxpayers.
the scheme
I really need a definite scheme,a time table for the IELTS.
Overall,I need two and a half months for preparation:one month for the vocabulary,one month for the writing & speaking.I also plan to take another IELTS class in NEW CHANNEL for the final sprint in May.
It is clear that the weakness of mine is lack of vocabulary,whic directly influnce my writing an speaking abilities.I am trying my best to memerize these words everyday but it seems quite difficult.Recite ten pages,forget nearly six.Wha's more,I can not use the new words correctly and fluently even i have owned these words.All the sentences I write consist of high-shcool words,due to this,the article seems simple and inferior.
The very time for my IELTS is one of the three test days in June.So time is a little uptight.
Fortunetly,Listening & Reading are a little easier to me.I hope I can get 7.5 point or even more after two months prepare.My final goal is IELTS 7 point.
Overall,I need two and a half months for preparation:one month for the vocabulary,one month for the writing & speaking.I also plan to take another IELTS class in NEW CHANNEL for the final sprint in May.
It is clear that the weakness of mine is lack of vocabulary,whic directly influnce my writing an speaking abilities.I am trying my best to memerize these words everyday but it seems quite difficult.Recite ten pages,forget nearly six.Wha's more,I can not use the new words correctly and fluently even i have owned these words.All the sentences I write consist of high-shcool words,due to this,the article seems simple and inferior.
The very time for my IELTS is one of the three test days in June.So time is a little uptight.
Fortunetly,Listening & Reading are a little easier to me.I hope I can get 7.5 point or even more after two months prepare.My final goal is IELTS 7 point.
2007年2月22日星期四
过年的心情
不知不觉，已经到了初三，回老家也有五天，这五天里，我大多数时间是独自呆在一个空荡荡的房间，里面只有一铺床，一张桌子，一把椅子。每天除了吃饭的时候，我都在里面，站着或者卧着，从窗口看着周围的青山，看着盘山而上的公路，看着只剩稻梗的田，看着翻来覆去找菜叶的牛犊。有时候，会觉得挺孤独的，就算下面家里人来人往，热闹纷呈，就算鞭炮声音不绝于耳，礼花在大白天升空绽放，我却无动于衷，依旧能够站着发呆。那些人，那些事情，那些笑脸和祝福，和我，有关系么？
心里的想法已经确定，我要出国，要离开这里，去外面的世界看看。国外一年研究生读完，只要有机会，就会接着读博士，继续待在那里，继续未知的生活。既然抱着这样的打算，现在周围的这些，于我又有多大的关系？大学的同学，不过萍水相逢，求同存异罢了，有几个真正知道我在想什么，又有几个是我熟悉了解的？一段段感情，那些我真心付出过的女生，期待着平庸的稳定，或者浮燥的新鲜。她们想要的，只不过是我的的关心照顾和她们的自我满足。感情生活，一直以来都占据了我很大部分的心思，自己的，别人的，适合的，不适合的。总是期待遇到一个女孩，她能够与我用心交流，能够知道我想要的和想做的，能够支持鼓励我，继而一同成长，能够透过我的外表和语言，珍惜我的本质，能够像桌旁的台灯，温柔温馨，相伴相随。
人活着，一定要有所追求。不管追求的是什么，只要有了这么一个目标，具象的或抽象的，只要它存在前方，就会像灯塔一样照耀着自己，给予动力，给予激情。或许现在仍会觉得彷徨空虚，或许现在仍然浑浑噩噩，那只是因为雾气罩住了灯塔，视线看不到，只能用心去寻找。
魄力，不只是果敢地作出决定，更重要的是坚持自己的选择，一路走下去。年华虚度，只会渐渐苍老，为追求梦想而付出的汗水，应该是甜蜜幸福的。国、珊、挺挺、琦、毛毛，之所以喜欢和你们在一起，喜欢和你们聚餐后的交谈，正是因为我们都是一群有着自己的追求和理想的人啊。理想或许会变，信念却一直坚持。因为有着这样的坚持，我们相处八年，互相扶持，共同成长。大学里我们分散在全国各地，距离的遥远并没有使我们生疏，假期固定的聚会，广阔的交谈，彼此都能感到欣慰－原来都在成熟啊。
相信自己，坚持信念，并且为之奋斗不止，这就是我的座右铭。
心里的想法已经确定，我要出国，要离开这里，去外面的世界看看。国外一年研究生读完，只要有机会，就会接着读博士，继续待在那里，继续未知的生活。既然抱着这样的打算，现在周围的这些，于我又有多大的关系？大学的同学，不过萍水相逢，求同存异罢了，有几个真正知道我在想什么，又有几个是我熟悉了解的？一段段感情，那些我真心付出过的女生，期待着平庸的稳定，或者浮燥的新鲜。她们想要的，只不过是我的的关心照顾和她们的自我满足。感情生活，一直以来都占据了我很大部分的心思，自己的，别人的，适合的，不适合的。总是期待遇到一个女孩，她能够与我用心交流，能够知道我想要的和想做的，能够支持鼓励我，继而一同成长，能够透过我的外表和语言，珍惜我的本质，能够像桌旁的台灯，温柔温馨，相伴相随。
人活着，一定要有所追求。不管追求的是什么，只要有了这么一个目标，具象的或抽象的，只要它存在前方，就会像灯塔一样照耀着自己，给予动力，给予激情。或许现在仍会觉得彷徨空虚，或许现在仍然浑浑噩噩，那只是因为雾气罩住了灯塔，视线看不到，只能用心去寻找。
魄力，不只是果敢地作出决定，更重要的是坚持自己的选择，一路走下去。年华虚度，只会渐渐苍老，为追求梦想而付出的汗水，应该是甜蜜幸福的。国、珊、挺挺、琦、毛毛，之所以喜欢和你们在一起，喜欢和你们聚餐后的交谈，正是因为我们都是一群有着自己的追求和理想的人啊。理想或许会变，信念却一直坚持。因为有着这样的坚持，我们相处八年，互相扶持，共同成长。大学里我们分散在全国各地，距离的遥远并没有使我们生疏，假期固定的聚会，广阔的交谈，彼此都能感到欣慰－原来都在成熟啊。
相信自己，坚持信念，并且为之奋斗不止，这就是我的座右铭。
2007年2月12日星期一
My hometown
First of all,thanks Miss Golden~I know I have a lot problem on my English ,but i will be better with your help. "Breaking up" can i say "Dumping"?
Today i'd like to say something about my hometown longyan,you also familiar with this place,isn't it?^^
My hometown Longyan has a nice living environment,with an agreeable climatic conditions which is influenced by the sea,called maritime climate.(Is this sentence too long?)
Spring here has pleasantly warm breeze.In summer,the temperature is not very hot and nearly has a shower everyday.The sunshine is genial and you can see the harvest colour everywhere in autumn.Because of the global warming,we also have a dry and mild winter.(How can I make these sentences to be high-level?I think they are too simple,with too many "and")
In conclusion, the nature conditiong here is habitable.
The development of the economic here is growing faster and faster.Morden cars can be seen everywhere,like Audi an BMW.On the other hand,the streets here are still what it used to be,which means that they are too narrow to fit so many cars.But restricting car use would cause protests from those who are eager to show off their wealth-most rich people here like doing this.
Today i'd like to say something about my hometown longyan,you also familiar with this place,isn't it?^^
My hometown Longyan has a nice living environment,with an agreeable climatic conditions which is influenced by the sea,called maritime climate.(Is this sentence too long?)
Spring here has pleasantly warm breeze.In summer,the temperature is not very hot and nearly has a shower everyday.The sunshine is genial and you can see the harvest colour everywhere in autumn.Because of the global warming,we also have a dry and mild winter.(How can I make these sentences to be high-level?I think they are too simple,with too many "and")
In conclusion, the nature conditiong here is habitable.
The development of the economic here is growing faster and faster.Morden cars can be seen everywhere,like Audi an BMW.On the other hand,the streets here are still what it used to be,which means that they are too narrow to fit so many cars.But restricting car use would cause protests from those who are eager to show off their wealth-most rich people here like doing this.
2007年2月9日星期五
What's going on
I suffered from insomia last night,thinking about some questions which puzzled me these days.
Do I love her?What have I got in this relationship?Does she really care for me?Why am i feeling unhappy nearly everyday?
I know what exactly I want.She isn't the Ms Right for me.We seldom communicate with each other deeply.In the vacation,the life style she likes is connecting in internet,charting with her friends and playing computer games,which,I think is wasting of the time.I told to her what I thought a few times but useless. She considers that her life will be boring without this.I am a sensitive man so I need the security of a stable relation.She cost most of the time on internet,due to this,I can hardly feel her emotion sometimes,which,really depresses me.
I have considered breaking a few times.But it's hard to decide.I'm not a man with plent of guts.A friend of mine told me that the boldness was not only the choice which I would choose,but also the persistence after I did my choice.
What's going on?I have to think about it.
Do I love her?What have I got in this relationship?Does she really care for me?Why am i feeling unhappy nearly everyday?
I know what exactly I want.She isn't the Ms Right for me.We seldom communicate with each other deeply.In the vacation,the life style she likes is connecting in internet,charting with her friends and playing computer games,which,I think is wasting of the time.I told to her what I thought a few times but useless. She considers that her life will be boring without this.I am a sensitive man so I need the security of a stable relation.She cost most of the time on internet,due to this,I can hardly feel her emotion sometimes,which,really depresses me.
I have considered breaking a few times.But it's hard to decide.I'm not a man with plent of guts.A friend of mine told me that the boldness was not only the choice which I would choose,but also the persistence after I did my choice.
What's going on?I have to think about it.
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